Hah, you should see
my board. Barely half a dozen guys, about one post per week.
Personally, I am currently on a side track with my sudden Shantae / Brutal Doom crossover that has no place on this forum.
And things keep distracting me from reading Return Revised. Ironically, I read tons of other stuff since then, including three humongous Worm fics. Oh spirits, they are eating at my mind!So many characters, and I memorized them all! Why oh why.
And all of that while I have a browser tab with Ch. 4 of Betrayed Consequences open... since January, I think
Because I take reading The Return
properly, with enough spare energy to comment, too seriously.
How do you call that thing when you got so used to postponing things you want to do that your mind becomes twisted and when you get a chance to do them, you find yourself wasting time with meaningless distractions, or just spacing out for no reason, unable to act until the opportunity passes and then you are back to wanting again, trapped forever between frustration and strange mind block
Most of my weekends in the last couple years were like that, 90% wasted, and all my vacations in the last decade, if you can even call them that.
My fanfiction writing suffers, my productivity at work flags dangerously... How does one break such a vicious cycle?
Planning suicide failed miserably as I caught the "never give up" bug again (I suspect, from Shantae this time, because it was Ranma 1/2 that had infected me with unyielding optimism the last time, in 2006 -- the charge lasts about 7 years, obviously). Also, we already have Brian Randall. I can't do that to my readers, not unless all my works here are done.
Using psychoactive medicine for schizophreniacs doesn't do anything. Well, it makes me more balanced but that's all.
Piting my willpower against the block only strengthens it.
Petting my cats only decreases my stress level, until I hit another block and it rises again.
Trying to use techniques against writer's block fails because I get distracted anyway, reading another Worm fic, or some unrelated wiki or stuff.
Using moonshine... a good try, but I tend to savor it so slowly that one bottle lasts for months. Yummy!
I suspect there is a simple recipe I'm not aware of, only requiring pointed application of willpower, but
argh Does anyone have blatant revelations to poke me with?